2nd Drawing using SketchBook Express Drawing App~Enjoying it!

    Rid of most of my assignments, I'm feeling much freer now~So I took my sweet time to write this. Life has been stressful for I don't know how long. Apparently. dealing with human is more tiring than dealing with animals. They give you so much headache and heartache that sometimes you just wish they would just shut up and disappear from your life. The feeling of being used and betrayed is just too much for me. I'm growing tired of living with those ignorant and selfish bastard...sigh
    OK! Enough of me ranting~~ Back to the topic!

    4 months after the first drawing, I gave the app another go!! This time with a touch/feel of summer to fit with the season (I don't even have to get into the mood since Malaysia is summer all year long) Without further ado, I'll just lay out all the steps on how I drew it. Drawing with fingers again..ugh (have to stop my fingers from trembling while drawing long lines) These are all screenshots since I drew it on my phone XD I snapped the process 1 by 1 just so I won't lose track of what I'm drawing because it was not as easy as my first drawing.

Sketch a rough guideline to begin with

Add the 2nd layer and start with the face shape, eyes and part of the hair

Reduce the opacity of the guidelines (add and adjust the guidelines as you go)
to get a better grasp on where to draw
Draw the rest of her body and dress 

Finishing the arc of her hair and correct her fingers
Added a flower on the guideline layer

Added a ponytail and a flower. Completion of line art.
Doing last checks to see if there're any mistakes.

Removal of the guideline layer to reveal a clean line art.
(CAUTION: once you delete the layer, you can't undo it)
So now I'm back to 1 layer.

This is where things started to get difficult.
Add 2nd layer
Colour her hair by blending different shades of red.

Add 3rd layer
Colour her skin, also in different shades to create tone
Merge it to 2nd layer(hair) after done.
(CAUTION: You also can't undo it after merging)

Add 3rd layer again
Colour her dress with different shades of purple with a mix of pink
Merge it again to the 2nd layer

Add 3rd layer *again*
Colour her eyes with different shades of blue.
Added some black & dark blue short lines on her eyes
Merge again

Add 3rd layer *again~*
Finishing the rest of the flower with bluish purple and a hint of brighter purple
Merge again

Add 3rd layer
Give some colour to the background.
Light blue as base, reduce opacity of other colours and slash it around
Merge again but make sure you're satisfied with the background

I was unsatisfied with the dull skin tone so I added another layer
Add more tone to her skin, darker tone at where it should be (near hair and under her dress)
Add a little blush
(P/S: for this to be visible, drag this layer to the 2nd position before merging)

I added another layer to insert my signature and date
And IT'S DONE!!!

Then I crop out the parts I don't need.
Tada!!

I used my phone to my advantage, editing it with phone's effect
The colour looks warmer, perfect for summer!!

Another edit version, this time to make her glow.
Just as if she's walking under the sun by the beach~ きらきらと眩しいです！

    Tons of steps for quite a simple drawing. It's because of having only 3 layers that it took so much effort to complete it. And drawing with fingers just increased the difficulty~ I know it's not an impressive drawing or anything but I'm satisfied with the result ♡~

SketchBook Express Drawing App!!! Trying for fun~

    Recently...oh not recently *since I have been away for some time* I got this app [SketchBook Express] by Autodesk Inc. from Play Store on my phone out of curiosity and realized that my phone doesn't have a pen!!! (I mean stylus) and other people's phone's stylus doesn't work on my screen too (probably because the touchscreen doesn't support/detect stylus)..so...I was forced to use my fingers to draw~ XD

My iRO character avatar MoKuReN (11/3/2015)

    This is my first product. Geez..never thought it would be so hard to draw with fingers. There's no edit tool to adjust the lines so I have to erase/undo the lines and redraw. (Imagine me trying to draw straight or curve lines with trembling fingers) That was horrible! but anyway~I managed to complete it. Surprisingly, colouring using fingers is much easier compared to using a mouse.

    SketchBook Express has 3 layers. I merged all 3 after finishing it. (P/S: once you merged them you can't undo~it's irreversible so check properly for any mistakes before doing so) After that, my SD card failed me and all my files in the storage were wiped out. My 500 songs, my recordings, my photos...EVERYTHING IS GONE!!! Fortunately, I saved this in my computer out of habit of having back-up on everything I have.

    Drawing used to be my favourite hobby but that doesn't mean I have great skills right? I rarely draw nowadays. Hope I'll draw more in the future. It's one of my many ways to procrastinate and get rid of boredom.

Overall: SketchBook Express is quite a nice app but I wish they can have more layers like 5 or 6, just to make life easier. =)

Card Captor Sakura は大好き！

    Iyaaaa~ I left the blog untouched again for another year! These days there's just too much stuff to do and too little time to check on anything but sleep! Recently I took my time rewatching Card Captor Sakura. It's one of my favourite childhood anime ♡♡♡!! It's like the 4th or 5th time LOL! I just don't get bored with it~ Besides rewatching, I also covered one of my favourite CCS songs - Tobira wo Akete~ It's such an upbeat song that whenever I'm down it cheers me up ♡~

    I found the off vocal version and did a one-shot with it due to time constraint. Luckily the surrounding was quite quiet that day and I managed to record it on my phone without unnecessary background noises > - <
    Although it's a one-shot but I think it went well without much pitch problem since it's a favourite of mine that I hum from time to time. I even sang it to my classmates who were fans of CCS back in secondary school~ I might cover more CCS songs in the future, sort of like CCS song medley XD

Kitto daijoubu dayo!!!

DECO*27 - Streaming Heart ストリーミングハート ft. Hatsune Miku [Lyric]

Another awesome song by DECO*27!! *clap clap* It was released on 21/3/2014. The guitar and the drum~ *goes crazy* and amazing MV by ががめ and YumaSaito. Since it was only uploaded 2 days ago, there's still no romaji lyric So I went and did it!! Based only on my hearing and the kanji lyric, I hope I got it all correct~ Here you go ~ ^ - ^
P / S: DECO*27's 4th album, 「Conti New」 will be available on 26th March Be sure to support him ~ XD

http://www.amazon.co.jp/dp/B00I3LHL9Q

Music & lyric : DECO*27

Arrangement : DECO*27 & kous

MV: ががめ & YumaSaito

Singer : Hatsune Miku

Original upload :  [Hatsune Miku] Streaming Heart [Original Song]

Are ya kore ya iimasu ga douka sagashite misete

Uso to honne no aida umaku kakushi toitande

Hitori ja dame na doushi de futari ni nareba happii

Sono uchi futari ga iya de "hitori ga ii" toka itte

Kotei no shiyou mo nai kanjou no ikitsuku saki wa doko deshou

Oboresou ni natta daishou ni mata sanso wo mitsukechau nda

Yowamushi da ne ochiru koto ga kokochi yoku te sa

Aimai ni shitai no sa

Suki de itatte yugande ku naishou

Aimai ni shitai no sa

Kirai ni natte shimaetara daiseikou

Hitori ja dame na doushi de futari ni nareba happii

Sono uchi futari ga iya de "hitori ga ii" toka itte

Dou senara boku ga mou hitori itanara sore wa sore de happii da

Kyou wa boku ga onna no ko enjiatte baka mitai ni sa

Egomama da to shirinagara mo yamerarenai no sa

Aimai ni shitai no sa

Suki de itatte yugande ku naishou

Aimai ni shitai no sa

Kirai ni natte shimaetara seikou

Baibai wo shitai no sa

Boku de itatte tanoshikunainda

Taigai ni shitai no sa

Mou mou mou

Are ya kore ya iimashita douka sagashite misete

Uso to honne no aida umaku kakushi toitande

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あれやこれや言いますが　どうか探してみせて

ウソと本音の間　上手く隠しといたんで

一人じゃダメな同士で　二人になればハッピー

そのうち二人が嫌で　「一人がいい」とか言って

固定のしようもない感情の　行き着く先はどこでしょ

溺れそうになった代償に　また酸素を見つけちゃうんだ

弱虫だね　堕ちることが　心地良くてさ

アイマイにしたいのさ

好きでいたって　歪んでく内声（ないしょう）

アイマイにしたいのさ

嫌いになってしまえたら　大成功

一人じゃダメな同士で　二人になればハッピー

そのうち二人が嫌で　「一人がいい」とか言って

どうせなら僕がもう一人　いたならそれはそれでハッピイー

今日は僕が女の子　演じ合ってバカみたいにさ

エゴママだと知りながらも　ヤメラレナイのさ

アイマイにしたいのさ

好きでいたって　歪んでく内声（ないしょう）

アイマイにしたいのさ

嫌いになってしまえたら成功

バイバイをしたいのさ

僕でいたって　楽しくないんだ

大概にしたいのさ

もう…　もう…　もう…

あれやこれや言いました　どうか探してみせて

ウソと本音の間　上手く隠しといたんで

A Cover in the midst of busy assignments~ Senbonzakura 千本桜 in piano ver.

Seriously lots of assignments to do and so little time to complete them all!!!
But...a little time for a cover won't hurt~
So I went and did a cover on one of my favourite songs~ Senbonzakura 千本桜 in piano ver.
Just a short one though ^ - ^

Piano ver. by うぃんぐ

The original piano ballade ver. can be found here:

【千本桜】piano ballade ver うぃんぐ【譜面有】

    It's my first time doing a cover with music since I always find myself having tempo problems...This time I think it somewhat worked out...It sounded OK but still, I wasn't able to get the feel until the chorus part which is OTL But I enjoyed it very much...listening to the piano ver. soothes the hectic life I'm having right now~

Well...gotta get back to work!! assignments...assignments *mumble mumble*

Hatsune Miku - White Prism [lyrics]

This song is the sequel of "Black Board" from the same composer. It was released on 19/7/2013 on Nico Nico Douga by the composer himself. I love the piano arrangement~~ (｡◕‿‿◕｡)~♡♫♪ Hope the romaji is 100% accurate. Sometimes it is a little tricky to know where to split the words but I guess I did it correctly?? I just started learning the Japanese language, so I don't dare to translate it. Anyway, here you go~

Music & lyric : Papiyon (also known as Chouchou-P [蝶々P])
Singer : Hatsune Miku


Shikisai ga kousa suru no wa
Shoudou wo sute kirete inai kara
Sei no kontei wo ki ni shiteiru no wa
Ai ni sugatteita boku dake no you da

Kou natta keii bakari ureitatte
Jou ni shite kashika wo surundarou
Rin to shita chinmoku ga kowai kara
Itsudatte mitsumeteitai no yo

Kimi ga nokosu chiisana mejirushi wo tayori ni
Boku wa nani mo shiranai mama nakijakuru

Kono kandouteki na kuukan wo umetsukushita
Shiroi kyanbasu no joukei ni me wo mukereba
Soko wa jinsei de saidai na boku no ibasho
Kimi ni sayonara

Mainichi ga nanika no joudan datte
Tsuioku wo egaite ikunda yo
Kansha shite ogande mitai kedo
Hyoujou wa mou wasureterunda yo

Sou yatte kako bakari ureitan ja
Jou ni shite kotonari ikundarou
Rin to shita chinmoku ga kowai kara
Itsu datte shinjiteitai no yo

Kijou no kuuron wo kaku mae ni
"Sukoshi hayai kedo, tadaima"

Hora moumokuteki na hassou de nuritsubushita
Kuroi kyanbasu no joukei wo fumitsukereba
Soko ga koudai de gouman na kimi no ibasho
Ai ni sayonara

Inochi no sentan wo sasu mae ni
"Osoku natta kedo, okaeri"

Kono toppatsuteki na kanjou wo oshikoroshite
Yume wo touta shita genjitsu de me wo samashita
Soko wa koukai de kantan wo nageita basho
Boku ni sayonara

Ina, kanshouteki na ketsumatsu wo yaburi sutete
Hidoi kyanbasu no joukei wo nurikaereba
Soko wa jinsei de saidai na boku no ibasho
Kimi ni sayonara

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色彩が交差するのは
衝動を捨て切れていないから
生の根底を気にしているのは
愛に縋っていた僕だけのようだ

こうなった経緯ばかり愁いたって
常にして可視化をするんだろう
凛とした沈黙が怖いから
いつだって見つめていたいのよ

君が残す小さな目印を頼りに
僕は何も知らないまま泣きじゃくる

この感動的な空間を埋め尽くした
白いキャンバスの情景に目を向ければ
そこは人生で最大な僕の居場所
君にサヨナラ。

毎日が何かの冗談だって
追憶を描いていくんだよ
感謝して拝んでみたいけど
表情はもう忘れてるんだよ

そうやって過去ばかり愁いたんじゃ
常にして異なり往くんだろう
凛とした沈黙が怖いから
いつだって信じていたいのよ

机上の空論を書く前に
「少し早いけど、ただいま」

ほら盲目的な発想で塗り潰した
黒いキャンバスの情景を踏みつければ
そこが広大で傲慢な君の居場所
愛にサヨナラ。

命の先端を刺す前に
「遅くなったけど、おかえり」

この突発的な感情を押し殺して
夢を淘汰した現実で目を覚ました
そこは後悔で感歎を嘆いた場所
僕にサヨナラ。

否、感傷的な結末を破り捨てて
酷いキャンバスの情景を塗り替えれば
そこは人生で最大な僕の居場所
君にサヨナラ。

I'm finally back!!

    It's been 2 years since I last posted anything. Basically, I've forgotten about its existence until recently I got an email stated that people are following me on Feedspot.com that I realized that I've stopped posting for a long time. Gosh, it feels dusty in here. > - <

    The last post was a request on the translation of the lyric of a Chinese song "我是谁" which means "Who am I". There are a few translations of the song out there but they were less accurate and often sidetrack from the original meaning. So, in order to fulfil the request, I tried my best in translating it my way to fit the exact lyric and telling what exactly the song is all about, connecting the meaning of all the verses instead of having them separately like what the other translators did. I'm glad that the requester loved my work so I'm all happy with it~

    Hmm...maybe I should start posting again? Not because of audience or follower but to keep track of what's going on around me. University life is harsh but who cares if it is, I just have to do it my pace~ Those that are still studying..　一緒に頑張ろうぜ‼

我是誰 / Who Am I lyric (translation)

Who am I 

Self-translated 

Who am I?  Don't you always ask yourself this?

Who am I?  Always living in other people's expectations

Who am I?   Who's the one that determined your life's worth?

Who are you?  You're only safe when you're not being yourself

Why do you think this world is very beautiful?

Why do you love this world more than yourself?

Why doesn't the world give you an equal treatment?

Why? What exactly have you done wrong?

Your friends say you are too,too,too strange

Behind your back they laughed at you as if you're a joke,joke,joke

Every action u made is being misunderstood

They say you are an intolerable existence

What you want is very,very,very simple

Which is the most ordinary out of all the ordinaries

Sometimes it is difficult to be yourself

But please be brave and try it out once

No matter what they say   all the rumours can't hurt me

There is only one me in this world   the irreplaceable 'me'

No matter what they do   they won't be able to defeat me

I know I'm the most beautiful

The most beautiful

Could it be God put your soul in the wrong body?

Could it be that he purposely did that and not because he is careless?

Could it be you often have the will but felt powerless

Is it that insisting to be yourself is too dangerous?

What do you base on?   Is it wrong to be rather special

What do you base on?   Judging people before you get to know them

What do you base on?   I just want to live earnestly

What do you base on?   Randomly convicting people

Your friends say you are too,too,too strange

Behind your back they laughed at you as if you're a joke,joke,joke

Every action u made is being misunderstood

They say you are an intolerable existence

What you want is very,very,very simple

That is the most ordinary out of all the ordinary

Sometimes it is difficult to be yourself

But please be brave and try it out once

No matter what they say   all the rumours can't hurt me

There is only one me in this world   the irreplaceable 'me'

No matter what they do   they would not be able to defeat me

I know I'm the most beautiful

The most beautiful

x 2

Who am I?   This question has been troubling you for how many days and how many nights

Who am I?   Who has the right to decide what's right for you

Who am I?   Who am I?   Who am I?

I am me    You are you

Earnestly being yourself is the most beautiful

x 2

我到底是谁？

我是谁

by Magic Power

我是谁 你是否常常这样问自己

我是谁 总是活在别人的期望里

我是谁 是谁又擅自帮你定义了

你是谁 只有不是自己才安全

为什么 你以为这个世界很美丽

为什么 你爱这个世界胜过爱自己

为什么 这个世界不给你平等待遇

为什么 到底做错了什么

朋友都说你太 太 太奇怪

在背后把你当成笑 笑 笑话看

每一个动作都被瞎猜

他们说你是个不能容忍的存在

你想要的很 很 很简单

不过就是最普通的 的 的平凡

诚实做自己有时候很难

但是请你勇敢的试一次看看

无论他们又说什么闲言闲语无法伤害我

世界上只有一个我 没人能代替的我

无论他们又做什么 小动作无法打败我

我知道自己是最美丽的

The most beautiful

会不会 上帝把你的灵魂放错了身体

会不会 是故意整你不是不小心

会不会 你常常​​都觉得力不从心

会不会 坚持要做自己太危险

凭什么 难道比较特别就是不对

凭什么 先下了注解在认识之前

凭什么 只不过想认真的活一遍

凭什么 随便就把人定罪

朋友都说你太 太 太奇怪

在背后把你当成笑 笑 笑话看

每一个动作都被瞎猜

他们说你是个不能容忍的存在

你想要的很 很 很简单

不过就是最普通的 的 的平凡

诚实做自己有时候很难

但是请你勇敢的试一次看看

无论他们又说什么闲言闲语无法伤害我

世界上只有一个我 没人能代替的我

无论他们又做什么 小动作无法打败我

我知道自己是最美丽的

the most beautiful

x 2

我是谁 这个问题困扰你多少天多少夜

我是谁 谁有资格决定你怎样才是对

我是谁 我是谁我是谁

我就是 我你就是你

认真做自己的人最美丽

x 2

Heartache...

      It's been a while since I last wrote something in here...I'm just too tired...My work's nt done...I'm beat. It's so hard to live with my dad...I mean...It's been like tat since I was born but now he's just getting worse. I don't even know how to cope with him anymore...He nags...He snaps...He hits...All those awful things just keep coming at me...I can't take it anymore >< My mom...she just listened to dad...said to bear with it. I know it's wrong to snap back at my dad but I just can't stand his attitude. He never listens to other ppl, he's always right even though he's wrong, he never understands my situation. He never tries to put himself in my shoes...I quarreled with him, arguing the right thing but never win over him. I ran away from home, he didn't even care. I tried to kill myself and he said "go on! do it if u dare!" Is tat how a dad supposed to act in all these situations? I don't care anymore...I just don't care...

Fantasy Maniac!!

      I woke up from my dream...it's a nightmare...the world has ended...well u may laugh at me =.=" but to me it's inspiration. Everyday, I got all kinds of great ideas from my dreams. The only thing I'm worried about is the day I woke up in blank memory...tat's gonna make me vry moody for the whole day. My dreams...it won't stop generating ideas. I love my own dreams...I juz love 'em...I can even watch Ep2!! now tat's cool~ it's real ^^ I've got all kinds of ideas from my dreams and wrote them into short stories...I even have a few loyal readers that follow up my stories~ It's my life and my own world~


      Sadly, these few days I've been waking up with no dreams...I was unable to think straight at all...I don feel like moving on to the next day knowing my dreams haven't came back. It sucks when I wake up with horrible dreams...I felt tensed when tis happens! Come back~ I need you~ >o<      


      The best thing about my dream is I can alter the way the story goes. When I'm nt satisfied with the dream...I can reverse and change to make it more interesting...reverse again if the outcome is still nt satisfying. I like the way I can alter the storyline and make it my own~ Everyday is filled with excitement...I can't wait for my next dream...wondering wat surprise I'll get. Since I've nt been dreaming for awhile, I'm starting to feel tensed and uneasy...A day w/o imagination is a disaster for me!! It's the worst!!


      I'm sure lots of people will forget bout wat they dreamt as soon as they woke up. It's like a memory wipe out for them. For me, I don't want to forget bout them...As soon as I woke up from my sleep...I'll start to write wat I had dreamt. Sometimes when the dream was cut short due to my alarm clock..sometimes I can continue tat dream the next day and EP2...haha..it's nice to have tis...no nid for movies or dramas...I hav my own movie and drama where I'm the director...I can change whatever I don't like and put in more ideas to make it more interesting. I'm not a movie director...I'm a dream director!! ^^

The one who I'll nvr be able to grab hold agn

      I still remember the way you smiled at me 15 years ago...I still remember clearly...the feeling I had for you is different from the feelings I had for other ppl...you're someone who's special to me...A one in a million. Nobody can replace you. You're not a lover to me...you're like a brother...someone who I admire so much tat I don't want to be far from...But it was only a year...juz one year and you moved so far away from me...I've nvr seen you since then. Do you still remember me like the way I remember you? Do you still remember what you said to me tat makes me the "me" today? It doesn't matter anymore...You're only a shadow...a memory I can't erase...


      When I was young...I was a very weak and coward little girl who can't stand for herself whn she faces problems. I was a no one before I met you. You changed me into a courageous person who stands firm on her feet and faces problems head-on. I'm "me" today cos of you...I wished you could've stayed a little longer. I know I can't turn back time...I know...


      I was always bullied back then. The boys juz won't leave me alone whn I'm in school. I'm afraid to tell my family bout it...but then...you moved here. Only a year older than me but you're much more matured than them. I didn't noticed you earlier cos I'm too busy running away from those boys...I don't hav any friend to defend me. I'm alone...always been alone. The day I noticed you is the day you're waiting for someone to fetch you...sitting by the bench outside the school juz next to me...You asked me why I let the boys bully me like tat. I cried infront of you...You comfort me and for the first time I felt safe beside a person my age. From tat day on you're always around me...helping me with my homework and as a playmate.


      The day I truly believe in you is the day you defended me against those boys. You beat 'em alone and made them promise to not bully me again. You're bruised but you didn't mind. I was touched to see someone willing to protect a person like me...I admired you since then. You're like a brother to me...Someone I can depend on when I had problems. You gave me courage to do things I didn't dare to do before this. I treasure you more than words can say.


      But the day came when you had to leave cos of your parent's career. You can't stay here anymore...I cried agn...You told me to be strong so no one will ever bully me agn even whn you're gone. I took your words and learnt to depend on myself. The boys didn't dare to bully me even after you moved away. I warned them to not take me lightly anymore. I've become brave juz like how you wanted me to be...I can even beat up boys whn I exploded now...haha...Thank you for all the things you've done for me~


      But I didn't get any news from you after tat. It's like you have disappeared completely from my life. I searched for your address but everything is in vain. Where are you? I've missed you so much that I cried every time I remember you during  my hard times...Where are you? You're too special to me...but I won't be able to see you anymore...Even if you don't remember me anymore...You'll always be remembered by me...I'm "me" today cos of you...you're a person who I'll admire for the rest of my life.

Do You Still Know Me?

      Met with a friend of mine which I haven't met for a long time...I waved at him but he ignored me...izzit cos he's with his gf tat he's embarrassed to reply me with a wave? Or u juz simply don't remember me anymore? I didn't look at him after tat although he's sitting only a few tables away...I noticed tat he turned to me a few times but I didn't get the feeling tat he knows me...maybe he's juz curious who I am to wave at a "stranger". How stupid can I get to think he still recognizes me...How stupid can I get, huh?

Forgotten...

      The day slowly givs way to the night...slowly...the night passes it's duty back to the day agn...I wonder how many years I've been like this...I've been the forgotten...for a long long time...I've been crying in the dark...for a long long time...Why am I the only one forgotten by evryone? Did I do anything wrong? Did I say anything tat hurt the others' feeling? I don't understand...I've been moderate...I've been patient...I've been careful with wat I said for my whole life...but still...It's the same no matter whr I go...I hav the ability (not 100% accurate) to sense ppl's hidden emotions...I know wat they think...I know how they feel...I know 'em well...so well tat it hurts me...


      I've been wounded...no one heals me. I've cried...no one comforts me. I've been sad...no one cheers me up. I've been cheerful...no one thinks I'm taking things seriously. I've been listening...but no one speaks. Wat's wrong with me? I've asked but no one said a thing bout me...Wat am I? Hav I forgotten myself too? Losing myself as time passes by...I juz can't get it off my mind...I believed I could juz let tis go...why do I still care whn it doesn't matter anymore since evryone's giving me the cold shoulder..."Will someone remembers me?" tis echoes in my heart...it's a question tat'll nvr be answered

Heartache...

      Feeling so angry and frustrated...irritated and annoyed at the same time...thr's so much stuff happening in only a short month...Evrything has gone wrong...Some ppl are not the same person they were anymore...I'm afraid...so afraid to say anything to them...I'm afraid I will step on the wrong patch of land and get bombed for no reason...I juz don't know what to say to them...


      I've asked someone in my class...tat person told me I'm "38" in Chinese...OMG!! whn did I bcom "38"? You don't even know me!! The thing I hated the most is budge in on somebody else's business!!! I don't like to get myself involved in something tat's unnecessary!! Yet tat person said I'm "38"...I wonder which eye of his saw I'm "38"? This person has been a very inconsiderate human...he is some sort of mutant~ nobody is able to understand him...he refuses to let other ppl know bout him...I tried to explore his feelings but in the end ntg came out!! He's juz awfully weird!! For God's sake, someone plz tell me wat kind of creature is he?


      He's juz too hard to get close to and he don't understand other ppl's feelings too. Everything he said bout me is wrong...I'm nt the kind of person he described...What am I in ur eyes? I doubt u even care bout those around u...I know...I know...You don't open ur heart to anybody...not even to the one who's always close to u and worried bout u...It makes us miserable and frustrated cos we tried evrything we can to change u into a more cheerful and open-minded person...


      I juz don't know what to answer u...u're juz a person whose keyhole is completely stuffed...I don't understand ur true nature...You're juz...juz...weird!!! 

Animal instinct?? Seriously?

      Been feeling like this since I was a child...I've never known any best friends...only ordinary friends...It's not tat I don't believe other people...it's just tat I trust people too easily tat it leads to this...I can only blame myself... "Yes, it's my fault"..."I'm sorry ok?"..."I'm not the person you imagined" It's always me apologizing...When I'm at my peak everyone comes near me...but as I fall everybody distant themselves from me...

      
      Maybe it's cos of my background that made me the way I am now. I spent almost all of my childhood time with animals rather than human...surrounded by nature from a young age makes me somewhat feral...isolated from human society...well it's not tat serious but till now I'm still not comfortable with people around me...It makes me feel somewhat isolated. Human mind is a complex thing that I can't understand. Being around animals for a long period of time made me sensitive towards other people's feeling and myself too became sensitive. なぜか? 私は自分自身を理解していない。


      Human doesn't think as simple as an animal does. As long as you treat an animal right, it will repay you the way you treat him but humans don't do tat. They'll always think of something so that they can take advantage of you. I wonder why? Maybe that's why I can't cope with 'em. Spending time with animals made me realized that humans are sometimes cruel and cold-blooded. They're scary creatures!! Runaway!! but I'm a human too...can I run from this truth? I don't think so...

The Most Boring Holiday...EVER!! but a lil hidden joy...

      This year's holiday is the worst ever!!! In fact...it sucks!! Tuition & extra classes till the end of December & revision for next year's exam. What am I? a robot? M-16 machine gun? Been skipping my blog for more than a month...pretty much like my sleep...I thought when school's off I would be able to get a little more sleep then usual but NO!! it's just the same as always...
      Feeling ill for a while now since it's raining almost everyday...sometimes from daylight till night...Barely made it home from tuition when the rain starts to fall...Almost ran out of gas everyday from these daily routines. So...ah! right! Introducing a manga I found recently...[Nurarihyon no Mago]

from bottom: Rikuo, Tsurara, Gitsune and Rihyon

      Found this a few days before holiday started. Quite nice...found this to be very interesting with all the youkai plot...especially the main protagonist Nura Rikuo. Rikuo has 2 personalities- one is his usual human personality Day Rikuo and another is his youkai personality Night Rikuo. Wanna know more? read it yourself!! The anime is out too...either one is nice but I like the manga better ^^

Left: Night Rikuo  Right: Day Rikuo

Final Exam Storm is Brewing~~

      Starting tomorrow...I'm gonna start having my final exam...it's gonna be tough coz the teachers didn't have enough motivation to teach...gotta study harder and squeeze 'em out!!! Hope I won't screw up any subject >< oh Maths!! y can't i understand u?

A Few Sneezes and It's Here...

      What a weather!! It was raining like crazy almost everyday and I was soaked a few times...having a few sneezes in school yesterday and now I'm down with fever...A pathetic way to lose to a cold ~.~ Hope I'll be able to go to school tomorrow...Final exam's almost here and I'm still dilly dally doing unnecessary things...So many things to study yet didn't have enough time for it...I'm dead meat!!!


      什么天气！几乎每天下雨像疯了似的，我被浸泡过几次...昨天在学校打了几次喷嚏，现在我发烧了...一个可怜的方式输给冷〜。〜希望我明天能去学校...大考几乎要到了，我还在做不必要的东西...这么多东西还没读完但是时间不足...我死定了！！

Best B'day Ever!!

      This year's birthday is the best in my life!! I've never celebrated my birthday with friends before and I find it rare for my family to celebrate it for me too...I had so much fun that I'm sure that I won't forget this for my entire life ^^ Having WTC crashed(11/9/2001) falls on my birth date looks unfortunate but I don't really mind. This year's classmates are the friendliest of all...Thx guys!! You rock my world~~~

Me and friends

We love to *peace*

I thought I only get to make 1 wish...but they call me to make 8 wishes...some are for you guys too! ^^
After all...it's you guys who gave me the celebration I won't  forget!!

My b'day cake...although it's not much but I'm grateful of it

cutting the cake

Playing games...1,2,3 don't move!!

getting drunk on ORANGE JUICE!!! hahaha...juz kidding

can u guess what shape is tis?

      Friendship can be bitter-sweet but if we treasure them...they'll always be sweet!! No matter what happen in the future...please don let go of your friend's hand and forget them...FRIENDSHIP is harder to find than LOVE...you'll know how empty it is when you lose them!!